Thursday, April 07, 2005

fucked up


the day's pretty fucked up...but in some sort of way, its ok..fine. i guess im turning to be a bit crazy as what earl said during an org mtg earlier (hah! im a head of smthng smthng and i dnt even knw it!). shit..i don't even knw how we (me and vinz) are now...i seriously knw there's something wrong..i know what it is..im scared to say it..waahh!!! HAAY>>

but knw wht? everythng in sch plus everything with ina and missy today was ok...i even got to tlk to thm and open up abt things..missy's stay in pcific was fun too..we were just laughing our heads off about the stupidest things but still...something's wrong, that im sure of...


problem is, i can open up to my closest friends but not to him..no no not about this one..but thanks keet--for your time too...haay

teltelbasked under the sun on 6:56 PM

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Monday, April 04, 2005

steady.


im starving. im sleepy. im bored. i know i have things to do but why am i not doing them? i dunno either.

the feeling of being down and depressed at times has never left me since after holy week, actually. things were liven up a bit arnd monday nyt..whn i pretended to hve frgotten smething in ministp, but then actually seized to opportunity to see vinz ryt away...things were ok tuesday too...despite the thought that ensci and yes, some classmates who couldnt think of more sensible things to talk about has caused me to wlk-out of class into a trouble with the lolo car (which btw, had fun written all over it for me;p)..the rest after that has caused sme relief..all i needed bfre a lng test in civ (which i did good in, btw;p)...

tuesday night was like 2nd sem nights at pacific once again..after a teriyaki boy dnnr and a bit of crying epi, i loved playing around with my playmate;p heehee...and given it was the last time il be able to sneak out my unit to his during wee hours of the morning...haay...everything we used to have was all so worth it!;p oi hon, thnks for stying in pcific huh? your stay here made me knw you more...it made us end up this way-- together:D il surely miss everything. btw, thnks fr almon marina and shang and king cone last wed!;p

*haha ffwd...monday, 04 april. he's gone again...and stress has been trying to kill me. how am i feeling? hmm..im really looking fwd to the end of the week..im stresing over papers and last minute reqs..im longing for cmpny..im dealing with moody siblings..im cracking up..but im steady, im steady. not really happy or sad-- just STEADY.

teltelbasked under the sun on 8:30 PM

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Sunday, April 03, 2005

march.


11-watched hitch..nice movie..funny 12- alyson's debut* it was nice sseing iv1 again..right before that was angelika's party so i gt to be with kat and ecai that day too..met with kaki and martin who were kind enough to brng me to reia, thn to meet vinz..the night was so much fun..haha clean fun as it is, the best thing was that my bestfriends were able to meet for the first time..haha and get this, they actually clicked!;p 15- did i say reia and vinz clicked? hahaha tuesda after sat, vinz and i found ourselves waiting for reia at the moro parking lot;p lunch after was one of the best ever...being able to pig out with my buddy again was in itself a treat;p happy martin was there too! 17- three months;p 19- cla's debut was made so much fun by the boys er-- grils? playgirls? hmph! whatever...haha! vinz, time, cliff, pops, macky a camera, a playground, vinz's bong and sme booze were all tht's needed for a satisfying nyt one could never forget...;p 20- who snuck in so early in the morning?** hahaha 22- dawn's birthday... ooh that's ryt...ate fe's nilaga was smething one could really call lunch..yumm..haha;p (secretly thanks vinz for frcing me to lunch. heh.) pacifier after class was not bad...an end to a perfect day would be having vinz over dinner..yumm..haha the pizza, i mean!;p

teltelbasked under the sun on 8:04 PM

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Saturday, April 02, 2005

hell week


or was it supposed to be holy week? hell. people were out basing under the sun somewhere and where was i? home. doing papers, missing my little boy and doing chores (hah! even yaya was out on vacation..why couldnt she have taken me with her?)>:c

teltelbasked under the sun on 8:09 PM

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