Wednesday, October 06, 2004

insanity

im loosing my sanity...help

that heavy feeling of depression was carried over frm last nyt to this day...it's not that im really depressed yesterday..i was happy...hyper pa nga...this morning i cant help but smile cz of wht's happening..i guess im pretty alright nmn...gt to tlk to john nga eh..he evn said i was blooming today..thn i made kwento abt ths to maits and ja, who, provided me with the blooper of the day..yup! blooper. see, i was tlkng nga abt hw i was told tht i was blooming and all (i did nt knw ths..putla ko nga knina eh!) hehe nwei, thn maits told me.."hy nku..klig ka lng cz of *that-tao's-name*" whaa!! thn ch[v] pssd by..looking. he must thnk na cia un cz he has the sme name as *him..whaa!! *bites nails (kya cguro iba cla ngumti knina..);p

okay, back to depression...as i said knina, im happy..it's just tht maits and ja and eunz gave me the opportunity to lay dwn the thoughts behind this happiness im feeling..(ayan na..) hay..everything seems to come in pairs these days..and this is no exmptn..nwei, now tht im strting to realize these facts..wht if ayw na nia? pno kng dmtng sa point na demoted to assumptn nnmn ako? wha..tht's wht im afraid of you knw..hay..im confused..dazed..depressed and going crazy...

so wht ja, maits and mself did was to wlk under the rain (remembers smthng=p), rode the elevator and placed ourselves at the roodeck of pacific and screamed our frustrations out..it trned out to be funny, actually..people frm the othr building tried looking out of their windows hehe..khya, bt dnt thnk thy minded..nwei, i just realied tht the place im living in reminds me of the *smeone im trying to frgt na..yeah, *that tao (the one who had this great smile plastered on his face knina) yeah, him.

aftr we wnt bck sa tents sndli..tlked ourselves mad whil sir vito couldnt figure us out.hay, dnt blame him..we're crazy...8<

ate alot today...chocolate..chkn burger...chocolate..candy...dmn, sugar rush number two! out of depression? out of confusion? out of happiness? out of insanity? or out of hunger? hay, go figure. oh well, this wldnt look good on my food diary..*pop*


hehe timmy! happy brthday, dude..libre!!


teltelbasked under the sun on 5:17 PM

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