Wednesday, October 13, 2004

block v

hay..is that a new name for our block? siguro nga...i guess im one of those excluded in this..just YET. yes, it has been diffcult for me to be a stress-cushion. now that i have realized that im problem free (well, at least free of some...), happy..i just realized that im not that stable afterall..yes, im not that strong.

most of the d-prople have been dwn recently..with whtever prblems, well, i would knw, tht's fr sure. nw being tht only *happy something in the block, i need to somehow 'neutralize' the situation, the mood..hay..i mean, i just cant leave thm lyk tht..*wha!* but i am breaking down myself..most of the d-people have been turning to becme v-people..yes. i think i am on the verge of breaking down. i need help myself, i admit.

the smoke entering my systems...the booze being consumed ryt bfre me...and my crowd--one by one falling into that droggy ecstasy, how am i not gnna break down? it's too much fr me to handle, i guess...but im trying my best to hold on.

i need to see other faces..i need to see faces far frm the faces ive grwn so used to seeing everyday...i need to see..*who..you.

why does it have to happen now? this is hw we are wrapping the sem up..exams are here, and we have become like this? it's not the school, in fairness to my univ. the univ is good, fun even. i guess this is just a spiffed up version of the *adjusting stage, as one puts it...

i seriously need help. i need help so i can help...(i told thm not to..look at wht happnd?) so i can help effectively...damn, i feel so guilty...ndadala nko...

block v...will you help? cz nt evn the sight of *those people* can..

anyway..blatd hppy brthday, resh!;p



teltelbasked under the sun on 5:51 PM

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